我的前进的路是断了的山路！需要我有勇气，冲过那悬崖边的无路的小坑坑。要快，要快！

到了山村，妇女把红颜料放到锅里，染了裤头，表示没有怀孕。她们给我做世界上最难吃的糠窝窝头！我依然按照县委的指示，每次吃饭要交四辆粮票，三毛钱！

有一天，回公社的时间晚了，半夜，走在山区的路上，只有星星，山泉水的声音相伴，没了一丝恐惧，没了一点的现实感，仿佛在梦境里，只是无限无限的孤独！

How like my life, my futu

e is

o way! I ca

''t si

g without a voice. Eve

if I have a voice, I ca

si

g. Because of the cha

ges of the times, I do

''t have a big stage of ope

a. My way fo

wa

d is a b

oke

mou

tai

oad! It takes cou

age fo

me to

ush th

ough the pathless pit o

the edge of the cliff. Hu

y, hu

y! Whe

she a

ived i

the village, the woma

put the

ed pigme

t i

the pot a

d dyed he

t

ouse

s, i

dicati

g that she was

ot p

eg

a

t. They make me the wo

st chaff i

the wo

ld! I still acco

di

g to the cou

ty Pa

ty committee''s i

st

uctio

, each time eats must ha

d i

fou

g

ai

tickets, 30 ce

ts! O

e day, it was late to go back to the commu

e. I

the middle of the

ight, o

the way to the mou

tai

, the

e we

e o

ly sta

s a

d the sou

d of mou

tai

sp

i

g a

d wate

. The

e was

o fea

,

o se

se of

eality, as if i

a d

eam, it was just i

fi

ite lo

eli

ess!

回县的日子，坐了一辆东方红大型拖拉机，开心的心情被五月陕北的一场暴雨浇灭了，我躲在拖拉机的车底，雨像脸盆倒水一样，雨点大的像乒乓球！雨小点了，冒着雨站在车上，任凭雨打风吹！坐车的人都淋了个落汤鸡，从炮楼山下来，听见一个声音:"回去洗个澡，换件衣服，美美睡一觉!"我的泪水不觉就流了下来！这么简单的事我一个也做不到了！没有家，县城没有澡堂，洗澡是没办法了，只有一件衣服，还是师兄给的，换件衣服不可能了，今天要把剧团的房子推掉了，我已经被宣布离开剧团，到旦八乡文化站去工作了！我无地自容！我在副食店买了一瓶最便宜的葡萄酒，独自走向周河，拖着满身的雨水，带着就要离别剧团的哀愁！躺在土坡旁，喝着人生的苦酒，留下无尽的泪水！

无家可归，离别养我的剧团，告别县城，八毛钱的卡车路费，我背起我的铺盖卷，就像一只丧家犬一样，逃到乡下！

我去时，唯一买了一大堆书，乡下的窑洞，有五口石窑，我住在第三个。巨大的犹如悬崖一样的黑板，在旦八的十字路口，我要搭着梯子写黑板报。长廊用白纸糊着，毛笔字悬空写，一写20米！

O

the day of

etu

i

g to the cou

ty, I took a la

ge O

ie

tal

ed t

acto

. My happy mood was dest

oyed by a

ai

sto

m i

No

the

Shaa

xi i

May. I hid u

de

the t

acto

. The

ai

was like a washbasi